A New Season

I sit here tonight with the moon rising over the city and on the cusp of a new season. Spring is on its way out and summer mere moments away. Another change, another season, another time and another shift.

But it just isn't the world going through a change, for I am on the cusp of some decisions right now. The first day of summer shall bring a job interview with possibilities of heading to South America. If that doesn't materialize, there are other options for going away and even staying. Like reading a good mystery novel, you can only guess or predict the ending, but in some twist you are left reeling and heading in a different direction all together. So who really knows where this change will take me, but something is coming--I can feel it.

There is also a shift happening within. It is a situation where I could let myself fall and become so easily entangled with a beautiful, clever, witty, sexy man...but I am not allowing myself. I've played with this fire once before, and I don't want to be burned again. Besides, there is something in my gut that tugs at me not to get too deep. I don't know why they are there, but it isn't for me to question, but perhaps more to listen.

So, I am listening this time to those doubts and second guesses. I am listening to those tugs and unsettling feelings - the feelings that seem to be so easily shoved aside by the intoxication of it all...but not this time.

If it is mean to be, it will happen - whether in geography or in emotion...the change is coming. I just don't know when, but I do know that when I wake up the seaons will change and with that will bring more.